User blog:KittyInASheepsClothes/Stress Sucks

"That moment when you want to give up completely on life, but don't want to disappoint people. So, you give up on everything but breathing, ignore everything but the voices in your mind, commanding your depression and actions. Your mood becomes a wild fire, you cause the problems. You can't control yourself, you feel like a puppet. Y'know that moment? It's called stress, I'm going through it right now, I know how it feels..."

Over the past two weeks, give or take some days, I have been extremely inactive. I wouldn't be suprised if someone puts up a vote for my demotion soon. I realize I have neglected my duties as an admin.

See that quote above? ^^^ Stress, what I'm going through at the moment.

One of my only friends Emily died a week ago, give or take. I can't remember much of the exact day, but it has made me feel quite out of it. She was someone you can trust and love, and if you've ever lost someone you truly trust, y'know what I'm going through at the moment.

I know I've snapped at people like a bitch, so sorry Lott especially and the others. I seriously want to be with you guys every minute, but right now, I'm basically trapped in that little bubble over there which is called my mind. *points at annoying bubble of mind-y-ness.*

Some of you may be wondering, why is she telling us this?! Well, I'm going to TRY and come back. But like many people have noticed and pointed out these last few days, I fail in life :/

This blog is not a guilt-tripping blog, its a blog to say sorry for what I have done, what I am doing by neglecting you guys, and what I will do.

I will be back tomorrow, as much as I can. But remember guys, ''everyone has a breaking time every few years. Big changes can cause stress, and your mind plays with you. Trying to be too active and to live up to ALL the expectations is dangerous. Your mind has trapped you, it's playing with you, I dunno bout you but I don't want to play russian roulette with my mind...So let me do it in my time, let me live in my own time again. I will be back.''

K i t t y (Dance with me!) 06:40, February 29, 2012 (UTC)