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Thea: The chiming of ivory keys. Bless the Hephaestus children for making it sound so wonderful. So surreal. Though her skills were nowhere near that of a child of Apollo, Thea still took comfort in hearing the piano keys sing for her. It held the delicate and soothing voice of a mother, a figure she never managed to enjoy for long. The song she played held many memories, beautiful comforting memories. But the sad part was, she couldn't remember them. Not in her mind, no. But in her heart, she knew them. Her heart which had shriveled and suffered neglect for so long. It woke something in it and her fingers began to shake. She pressed the wrong key. Thea's eyes flicked back and forth to see the hall was empty, and she played again. Another mistakw. Her eye twitched and she played again. More and more mistakes. That brought her dainty fingers to fists that slammed down on the piano's keys with an ugly, menacing note. Her body shook and she cried. Yes, she cried. For the first time after four years, she cried. And suddenly the chimes of the piano keys suited the atmosphere.

Ryusei: ''Ryusei was lounging around in his room wearing a simple t shirt matching with a pair of slacks. He had a book in his hand as he sat on his lazy chair stating to read one of the many medical encyclopedias he had. As he slowly read the words the sound of the piano keys made its way to his ears. Huh...he said slowly as he slowly closed his book as he tries to hear each note being played what a sad song...he said slowly closing his eyes when he noticed the pianist made a wrong move and another one.. soon the sound of the piano keys being slammed made its way to his ear. He didnt move thinking the pianist would recover yet he soon realized she wont thus he got up placing his book on the cupboard and made his way to the music room hoping to give some sort of comfort to the pianist wonder what happened..he asked himself as he walked closer to the music room yet when he saw thea he knew the answer was far more complex''

Thea: Her teardrops rolled from her eyes, down to her cheeks, and on to the ivory keys. Body shook with each silent sob, and the occasional whimper and wince. Thea barely heard the footsteps, but then she thought it was in her head. Another hallucination. Slowly the black-haired demigod lift up her head and gazed at the nymph standing in the doorway. Was this real? Biting down on her lip, she wiped her tears away with her palm. Real or not, she was not going to seem weak. ''Push it down, Thea. Push it down.'' Her emotions she shoved back into their bottle. Corcked it up tight and put away. With a slow exhale, she began to speak. "I'm sorry." Her voice was a soft whisper. "I didn't mean to rough-house the piano."

Ryusei: he laughed upon hearing her words I'm not a music nymph so i dont complain about those simple stuff...he said slowly as he approach the girl but before he made a detour to the closet looking for some tissues for thea here...he said placing the box of tissue in front of her before sitting down on a chair please continue I heard the music and thought the pianist should be receiving some sort of applaud he said in a mature manner he know it was a lie yet being as old as he did he know how to play his card right at a situation like this even if the pianist doesnt think so...he continued giving her a smile

Thea: Her eyes slowly lifted, and found their way to him. Then to the box of tissues. She touched them, ah, they're real. Real... She stood abruptly and turned away, so deeply embarrased that someone saw her. "No..." She strained to speak. "My performance was flawed." Her voice cracked. "Flawed..." She held her head. My mind is flawed. With her back turned to him, she made a cringe. A pained, agonized cringe. She debated running. No. It would make her appear more weak. "I'm sorry." She said again, almost as if she didn't remember apologizing the first time. "I-..." And since arriving at camp, she was once again at a loss for words.

Ryusei: he heard the change in her tone thus stopped and turned around Everyone is flawed but that's what makes us human cause we're flawed he explained slowly as he pats her head but thats doesnt mean its a bad thinghe continued slowly in such a calm manner Anyhow to you it may be flawed but I like it...he said complementing on her skills cause the song reminded me of something either way I didnt mind you werent a bother...not at all he smiled once more as he bows

Thea: Despite having her back to him, she still listened to every word he said. "...But we're not human. So- that means- perfection is achievable for us-" She managed out and flinched when his hand found its way to her head. Thea ducked down and moved away, looking at him in confusion. "...You liked it?" She couldn't think. There were too many things to process. And the voices in her head didn't help either. Her shock was heightened to see him bow. She took a step back to absorb it all. Heck, she actually moved to the other side of the piano to absorb it all.

Ryusei: seeing her reaction didnt surprise him as his mind trying to think up a way to help the poor child the gods arent perfect so why are you complaining? he asked simply giving her a new point of view to look for

Thea: With her back once again to him, she leaned on the piano and pondered this. "Then what is perfection? Why does everyone strive toward it if it truly is something impossible; not even something Gods can achieve?" She held her head again. "Is it just a personal, subjective view? Varying in every creature? A capacity?" Her explanation sounded right to her ears, but it did not help her case at all. No, her problem is far from that concerning perfection. It'd always been more of an impulse for her. A sick habit of pushing boundaries to earn the approval of her father. Well, she has earned his approval, but still, she can't stop. It was more than just an impulsive desire for perfection, it was a mental disease. And she was very ill indeed.

Ryusei: he actually laughed you know something you remind me of my master alcepcious he said slowly after a while cause he was the best doctor and every day he ask what are the things I can do to benefit the world i live in hell he even brought the dead to life....which brought a lot of drama if you remember correctlyhe paused to look at thea's reaction still he told me that he found out perfection isnt a destination its perception what you see and what your satisfied with

Thea: "But I don't know. I don't know what I'm satisfied with. I don't know what I'm doing, I don't- I don't-" She shook her head, "Why am I doing this?" She seemed to be talking more to herself. Chiding herself. "I don't know what I'm doing anymore." And with that final statement, she sat on the floor. "I'm so lost..."

Ryusei: he sat in front of her thats good he said slowly smiling a bit as he awaited her reply

Thea: "Good?" She choked out, but dared not to look at him. A single teardrop fell on her lap.

Ryusei: he nodded his head slowly yes cause that mean you can find a new way to go than the old one you headedhe explained slowly

Thea: "But I don't know where to go..." Her grey eyes slowly lifted to look at him. They weren't blank anymore, they were scared. "The person he guided me is gone... H- he's gone..." Even though she was talking to him, it sounded more like she was telling herself, and realizing this.

Ryusei: his gentle smile never left his face as reached out his hand to touch thea if you dont know where your going it doesnt mean you cant be moving he said slowly and if you dont know where to go that doesnt mean you cant go there he continued calmly as for the person thats guiding you how do you know he's gone??

Thea: She moved back cautiously when he moved his hand, eyes wide. "B- but... What if the way I'm moving is the wrong one? What if I'm moving further and further away?" She held her head as she said this, and flinched when he inquired Collin's whereabouts. "He's dead." More tears dropped. "I held him as he breathed his last breaths."

Ryusei: once more he laugheddeath doesnt mean that person left you...hell it means he's there with you even more like the star that guide you. he explained slowly to the young childcause like a star it shines only at night and during the day you cant see it but you deep in your heart its there....constant as for your comment on being lost....he chuckle if Christopher Columbus wasnt lost would he find america? he asked the child slowly getting lost isnt a taboo its a blessing cause you find something new..

Thea: "Don't you see?" She whispered softly this time. "That very thought is what's driving me to insanity. I tell myself he's still here, and, because I know that, I believe he is, and-" She inhaled deeply through shaky breaths. "Because he can't tell me what I'm supposed to do, he can't even speak, I- I feel so lost... And I'm just chasing after his shadow and losing myself more and more to that world..." She clutched his hand in her shaking ones and stared at it. "Now I can't tell apart what's real and what's not... I'm finding myself in anew state of mind, yes, indeed..." Her thumbs ran across his knuckles. "Insanity."

Ryusei: he gave a gentle pat onto her hand everyone is insane in their own little way he said slowly trying to calm thea down anyhow your version of insanity seems normal to me...he nodded slowly anyhow if that person is also lost then what about you do him the favor of bringing him back? cause maybe he's telling you its time for you to take the lead? he questioned her once more as for the voice...how about you close your eyes and find your own voice? i know your heart must have a TON of stuff to say right?

Thea: She thought long and hard, closing her eyes and letting her grip slip until his hand fell from them. "...Grief." She exhaled, now using her hand to cover her face. "It's grief, isn't it? Grief and so much trouble letting go..." Thea leaned back on the piano leg and continued. "I've never been very good at handling emotions. For a long time I lived without them. But now... I can't deny them anymore..."

ryusei: he sigh as he tried to pat her head once more hoping it would clear up the muddle in her brain grief is the first part after a while you'll feel better cause you'll see letting go may hurt now....but later you'll feel better...anyhow how do you know you live without feelings?? dont you have the urge to eat and smile??

Thea: She grabbed Ryu's hand before he could touch her and put his hand away, before signing and shaking her head. "I eat to stay alive. Sometimes I forget to. I barely smiled. It was so efficient, energy saving not to feel. Everything was so easy and clear... I couldn't understand how people lived with them."

Ryusei: says the person that is trying to understand to understand them..he joked to her

Thea: She raised an eyebrow, confused.

Ryusei: he saw the confusion she had on her face and chuckle once more your here crying your heart out trying to understand what you already understand..

Thea: "Please stop laughing at me." She finally seethed, pulling her knees to her chest and frowning. "I should've known you wouldn't understand. You laugh at my pain and treat it like it's nothing. You can't just speculate how someone feels. You can never guess what someone is feeling." She turned away. "That's why I suppress it." Ryusei:at the moment he heard her words he sigh and got up lets go..he said slowly as he held out his hand for hers

OOC:which char for the fair thing >,<

Thea: She got up on her own. "I'm physically fine." She told him sternly, though in a tone that is very soft, allowing her British accent to ring clearly. "Where are we going?"

Ryusei: he grins refusing to answer as he lead her to the forest  dont you trust me??

Thea: "No." She says simply, but follows behind him at a cautious distance.

Ryusei: he tried hard to not giggle then why follow me?

Thea: "Curiosity." She replied just as quick.

Ryusei: he continued to lead her to the forest you know what they say about curiosityhe said slowly to thea

Thea: "Yes. And I am not a cat." She falls into step beside him. Her eyes glanced about the forest curiously, wondering where or what he was planning.

Ryusei: he laughed you sure about that you act like one

Thea: "Huh. Well I'm sure every lady yearns to be told that they act like a cat." She mumbles.

Ryusei: he laughed once more trying hard to keep thea happy of course cause it means the girl have 9 lives cute and quick on her feet he said simply trying hard to hide the sarcasm still here we are...''he said as soon as they reached the brook, The sun shone on the trees making it look like it was glowing. The surrounding was quite and calm as the water was the only thing they could hear.''

Thea: She stopped walking and raised an unamused eyebrow at Ryusei's statement, picking up his sarcasm anyway. "I think you're implying more on how they'll die of curiousity." However, the brook did make her forget what they were talking about in the first place. The first thing she did was take off her shoes and dip her feet in the stream.

Ryusei: he stayed still as he looked at thea at the stream I think this place would give you the calmness you need cause i doubt you'll tell me your story...he said simply this place is quite soo you can read a book and be alone nobody would bother you..

Thea: "But I don't want to be alone." She said quietly, not turning to look at him.

Ryusei: he raised his eye brow you sure about that your personality earlier makes me doubt your words...

Thea: "I don't expect you to understand. I doubt anyone ever will." She said slowly. "But in all honesty I am so very tired of being alone."

Ryusei: he sigh your never alonehe said slowly you have a lot of people around you...your just blind...

Thea: There was a short pause. "Yes I am. Will you help me see?"

Ryusei: he raised his eyebrow once more would you listen?

Thea: "I'll try my very best." She said, picking up a rock and smoothing her thumb over it. "Oh... I don't even know who you are."

Ryusei: he kept quite thinking of what to say to thea knowing this situation wont be good ummm Walter;...he said using an alias

Thea: "I'm Thea." She said softly, still not turning to look at him.

OOC: both of your characters won't tell Thea who they really are XD

Ryusei: he nods and its nice to meet you..

OOC:really didnt notice that

Thea: This time, it was Thea who laughed. "I believe you are saying that only for the sake of manners."

Ryusei: he shrugs maybe it was maybe it was a prayer for the future?

Thea: "That doesn't make it any more comforting in present context, you know." She finally looked back at him.

Ryusei: he shrugs we're both demigods we'll make it

Thea: "That's not really what I meant, but, alright." She takes her feet out of the brook. "Are you leaving?"

Ryusei: he shrugs do you want me to leave?

Thea: "No." She says simply.

Ryusei: he nods then i'll stay

Thea: A smile adorned her face for the first time that day. She patted the spot next to her.

ryusei: he nods as he walks to her and sat next to her

Thea: She pulled up her legs to her chest and says softly. "After letting my feet soak for a bit... I see what you mean now." She rest her cheek on her knee. "..Thank you."

ryusei: he smiles any time

Thea: "Will you stay with me?" She asks, but the question is vague.

Ryusei: I'm already here arent I? he asked back simply putting the logic back to her

Thea: "Will you always be here?" She continued, and dared herself to say the rest. "To pull me back when I'm lost again?"

Ryusei: he smiles and nod I am your doctor

Thea: She grins softly. "Terima kasih..."

Rysue: being his age he picked up a few otehr language sama sama he said with an english accent

OOC:malay?? seriously ><

Thea: She hummed and smiled contently.

OOC: I think you're forgetting that it's also 'Thank you' in Indonesian ^^; She had grown up in Bandung.