User blog:Shademoon/Sorry

Today there was a lot of tension and chat, and unfortunately I was on chat to experience it. For those  of you who missed the things that happened in chat today, I'd rather not mention it, because I don't want to reignite the anger and tension that showed up in chat today. I was included in most of it, and quite frankly, I'll admit, my inclusion did not help matters. At all. What I  said just added to the tension. Usually I say anything just to calm everyone down, but today I was not myself-I started scolding Hydro like he was a kid, and I'm really sorry for that.

People who were on chat might've been shocked because I acted like a bitch, even though I'm usually bubbly and cheerful. Let's just say I'm going through a hard IRL time, and I come on chat to cheer up and calm down, but there was already a lot of tension in chat and I had entered right in the middle of an argument. What everyone said did not boost my happiness and I kinda got along  with it. Everyone was saying sexist things, and I was surprised, because of how some people handled it. It cooled down and I felt better. But I was getting impatient for me and Dragy's claim, and we kept asking everyone to claim it. The RB's and admins asked us to stop but i was persistent, so I apologize for annoying them. I also wanna send out an apology to Hydro, especially-I was getting on his nerves and being really bitchy.

I really wanna say sorry to everyone. Im not myself today and I will take some time to cool myself down, get my irl shit sorted out, and come back when Im ready, because what happened on chat today was not me. This might seem really lame-writing a blog saying sorry. But I feel really ashamed and promise I'll get myself together.

Thanks.