User blog comment:Nat25/Mini Vacation/@comment-4708772-20161026190423/@comment-11358300-20161026204158


 * is confused at why she checked this even though she wants to stay away, wtf?*

Anyways, as I told Mel, I regret everything I do, about 2 days after I do it, mainly, all my blog posts. (What the actual - was I thinking back in 2014??????????). That's not the point. The point is that I always regret what I do, AFTER it happens, and there's no way for me to take it back, reverse time, and usually, what I've said, takes more than groveling.

As I am basically on probation and yes, I do realize that it's all my fault and I am honestly surprised it didn't happen sooner. I don't try to go around and say, "hm, who can I piss off today?" I get bored and then fights happen. (and if you think this is bad, you really don't want to see the fights that happen off of camp)

I have no intention of doing anything on my own anymore unless I am asked to do so. There was something I could have done last night, and I was like, eh, yea no, not taking that chance. (I swear I'm not trying to point this all out it just happened to be an example -.-)

Ah yes, my temper. Famous on this wiki, and beyond. (I realize that my temper being famous IS a bad thing) I'm trying to work with someone about it, and now that my current situation at home is changing drastically, things should start to change. (Besides, it took me FOREVER to obtain my helper status, there is no way in hell I am losing it. If I do, it'll take at least a year to gain it back     -.-)

I have read through all of these comments at least twice, some are very painful. Not to sound poetic, but each is a stab to my heart. What's worse is that it's all true, and it's happened for far too long.

If all of this has taught me one thing, it's that everyone deserves respect. (yes, that's the first lesson, there are many, many more I'm not even bothering to touch). As I mentioned in a previous comment, none of you deserve my anger. You all try so hard to keep this wiki up and running to the point where all I'm doing is blocking all of that by throwing a fit and being a brat.

Scratch, first lesson is don't argue with anyone who has a higher status than you. Second is respect.

Anyways, yea, I've read over everyone's comments, including my own, at least twice, and that will all be taken into consideration of how I'll be moving forward.

~Natalia