User blog comment:Nat25/Mini Vacation/@comment-4542064-20161010152254/@comment-11358300-20161019221010

Actually there's four.....

I've talked to Wolfie, and that's, well....... it is what it is.

I honestly don't know how to respond to Kevin besides dip my head and mumble sorry.

I'm going to outright say it. I regret this blog, and that's that. I wish I could delete it, and turn back time and undo everything bad I've done. Sadly, I don't have a TARDIS. (If I had one, well, I'm sure I wouldn't be here.)

I still love Camp. I really do, but right now, staying out of trouble seems like the best option when you're essentially on probation. Looking back at the three years I've been here, the major times that stand out, are all the fights, especially the recent ones, and that's something I want to change.

After writing this (okai, a few days after), I did feel guilty, because the Admin team doesn't need me complaining about everything. That's not right nor fair.

As for harassment, if you're talking about what I think you are, I'm sure you've heard part of the story, but I honestly want to drop that. Continuing to talk about it is only going to make things worse.

I realize the admin team doesn't trust me. It hurts, but I know it's my own damn fault that this all happened. I'm lucky Wolfie is even giving me the slightest chance. Do I plan on messing that up by going around, being reckless, immature and starting fights? No.

Wolfie was right when he said I've been given many chances over the years. Some people call the conditions he set harsh, I call them karma and consequences.

So don't ask if I feel guilty, because I do. You guys don't deserve my anger, no one does. The best I can say is that I'm sorry, I'll work on changing, and I'm a fuck up.