Template:Brocky292/Jacky5

      a very late fifth anniversary gift    truth be told i'm writing this when my mood and spirits aren't the greatest, as mentioned prior in the day -- may 16th, 2018 for record -- and with our argument in mind... i don't know what will come out right now. it seems to be some sort of theme that whenever i have a present to make for you that we get into an argument and i write things out of anger and spite, so i guess this one will be no different.

five years is a long time to be friends, so i'm not surprised we argue so much. especially when we consider each other to be a brother, because lets be real brothers fight a lot. truth be told none of my friends in my life have remained as relevant and as prominent a friend as you have in these five years. even my closest friends in my off computer life have only been my friends for four years (the one on and off since we were four but I don't count that). what i'm getting at here is that you're the longest friend i've ever had, and nothing i can say or do will ever show how thankful i really am for you being there for me all the time. it's hard to imagine growing up without someone like you, who i could always talk to whenever i wanted (because we're both fucked in the sleeping schedule department let's be real here) and who would always manage to cheer me up if i was upset (even if you were the one who caused it).

since i was just on the topic of arguments, i want to address something that's been an issue between us lately. by the first sentence you can probably already guess what i'm talking about here, which is roleplaying. i know i can be really annoying at times when it comes to posting and i'm sorry for that, but i hope you know it comes from a good place. on wikia, i can really say that you're the only one i've ever actually opened up to because the only other ones i've tried opening up to, well we know what happened. it's hard for me to make friends normally because people are normally turned off by me, so since i've had you as a friend it's made me overly protective which we've both seen me be. hence when i see you posting for other people i get incredibly jealous which then stems into thoughts of you not wanting to rp with me anymore which can then stem into you not wanting to be my friend if i let my thoughts wander. long story short, i'm really sorry i pester you so much about posting, especially when i don't do things for you (aka this present here), and i'll do my best to stop.

onto a lighter note, i want to talk about what you mean to me. i've already kind of touched on it a few paragraphs ago but fuck it we're doing it again. as someone who's been there for me for five years now, you can easily tell when something is wrong in my mood. and although i don't always admit to something being wrong because we both know i don't like talking about my feelings and personal wellbeing, i appreciate you making the effort to see if i am okay. being your friend has taught me a lot about myself. you've taught me to have more faith in myself and my capabilities, you've taught me how to be a better person, and most importantly how to be a better friend. i can happily sit here and say i admire you greatly for the person you are and i'm happy that together we've grown these passed five years into well balanced individuals (though most would see us as a pair). you're honestly the main reason i've stayed on wikia as long as i have because i can't bare to not do all our crazy plots and couples.

as a final thank you, i really do love you and i can't wait for another five years of being best friends. i know sometimes i don't act like it but our friendship means the world to me and if we ever lost it, i honestly don't know what i'd do. it's partially why i get so jealous, our friendship was turned into a mess twice because of outside people and the thought of that ever happening again makes me want to cry. now, as a final sorry, i'm sorry i get so jealous over everything. over you posting for other people instead of me, over you responding in main before skype, and just in general doing anything without me. i'm not going to say i'll stop, because let's be real i'm not going to stop, but i'll definitely try my best to not be as clingy and overbearing because i know it's annoying.

since i'm running out of topics to talk about, i'll just end this with i love you so much and i'm so happy you're my best friend <3. and also, here's ten gifs of different ships related to us to commemorate our friendship (i'd do ten reasons but you did that, and i also did that for your last birthday and like i said i wanted to try and be original even tho this is far from original, and yes two of the gifs were uploaded by you).