User blog comment:Nat25/Mini Vacation/@comment-32619469-20161010012619

I’m flattered that you appreciated my advice really, but, I really have to put things straight.

You've said countless times that you've changed and matured when you came back, and just as many times that you are ready, but in what way? I can wholeheartedly say that I'm still seeing the same Nat from a year ago right now. Once again, we’re in a situation where you're acting like the victim and making us seem like the bad guys when in reality, you’ve messed up. There's really no excuses, it isn't the administrators’ fault that you did things on your own decision in hopes of getting rollback.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still for the "It's not how we make mistakes, but how we correct them that defines us", I see potential in you somewhere, but there’s things that you’ve got to change. Saying, “I’m ready” isn’t enough when your recent actions don’t quite support your claims.

While I'm not speaking on Mel’s behalf, at this point, you’re simply putting words in other people's mouths and making unjustified claims. It's not that we have anything against you, it's that your attitude and behavior doesn't justify for us voting for you getting rollback. This is like deja vu all again, you made a mistake, you make a big deal about it, and then you put the blame on the administrators or others instead. Rinse and repeat. I don’t know how else to put it, but there’s nobody else to blame other than yourself in this circumstance.

The whole point of a rights vote is for the administration team to decide whether a person is ready or not. I’m not going to say that there is not some factor of bias, but you can't expect us to turn a blind eye when it's clearly evident by your recent actions that you are not as ready as you constantly and consistently say you are. Here you are saying that we are being biased when you are telling us to be biased by not voting for the sake of your own good. Actions are more important than words. We can take what you say into consideration but what you actually “do” reigns above all.

Constructive criticism is a thing for a reason, I don't know what else to say if you can’t accept the feedback we gave you. Your dismissal of our constructive criticism doesn't affect us, you’re only hurting yourself. We’re trying to help you, not kill you. Constructive criticism does not mean we hold grudges on you like you may think. It might seem blunt and blatantly honest, but at the end of the day, we’re not giving constructive criticism for our pleasure.

Moving on forwards, I really think that you should take a step back and consider the fact that it is not our fault that you were unsuccessful with your vote. It can’t be denied that your actions and attitude led to this in one way or another. You see, rewind a few years ago (give or take), I once got a first warning for the way I dealt with claims. Did I make a big deal out of it? No. Did I create a blog to put other people down because of my mistake? No. Did I own up to my mistake and change the ways I deal with claims? Of course. Putting the blame and fault on others, and not owning up to your mistakes is helping neither yourself nor others, this just shows us how mature and ready you are. If anything, what has happened, happened, you’ve just got to just own up to it.

I really hope that you’ll take this well like you did with my comment on your vote, but I’m not against you whatsoever, but this is my point of view of the reason of why I (and perhaps other admins) voted against you. In the end, I’m trying to help you understand where to improve on, more than anything.