Oh hey look, a wild Christmas gift appeared! :D It's that time of the year again! Time for candy canes, Christmas lights, carollers, and gifts galore! It's also the time for little kids to learn that Santa isn't real whoops. And here's my gift to you! You have been able to endure my insanity, drama, addiction to mangoes, and all around annoyingness, and for that I thank you. If I could, I would travel to wherever the heck you are and give you a well-deserved hug! But unfortunately, I can't. But who says we can't give virtual hugs? So here ya go~!
Everybody loooooooooooooves pizza! Well, except for an odd bloke but whatever. Anyways, I love you and never forget that. If you ever need anyone to rant at, I'm your mango. c: I'm always right here. Once again, have a Merry Christmas!
happy new year's eve! thanks for being such a good leader and figurehead for so long :). thanks for welcoming me back and dealing with me. i know that you're capable of so much and the brocolli duo can conquer all <3! happy new year's, i hope you have the best time ever!
well brocky I think your personally aware of the situation thats happening and I just want to say...
HAPPY NEW YEAR ( got you there...)
Soo many things happened during 2015.. so much drama... so much..stuff? but I have to say after all of those things you still continues to be that mature fellow I come to respect.. (to the point I wish to steal some of your maturity to just screw with my lecturers.. whom said they would go nuts seeing me mature.. with them nuts I can have more time here.. you see my idea?) either way I hope 2016 can be the year with less of the drama and more of the fun stuff (before you wonder where my grammar went... it went to bed at 1 am yes I am weak...) so lets just make this year as grand as we can :)
Best Friends are the people in life that make you laugh a little louder, smile a little brighter and live a little better.
The Three Years
November 2012 - November 2013
This is probably gonna be the shortest tab on this side of the gift purely because I cant remember much of this time. I do remember meeting you on the HG wiki and forcing you that one time to come to the HG wiki chat with Unu if you were serious about wanting to continue speaking to me. That should have been an indication really that I was about to embark in the best friendship ever. I don't even think we formally met, I think one of us just pmed the other and it went from there. I would have never ever guessed that the random user's games I joined when I was at the height of my HG wiki popularity would end up being the person I always look forward to speaking to daily.
We had various collabs during these years, among a few I can name that failed are Landon/Tori and Justin/Skylar. Yet we also produced Jato which I still feel is our model couple that all of our existing ones need to live up to in some way shape or form. I can remember embarking in couples and sibling collabs with you. Looking back on it I feel a bit embarrassed but I always felt really honoured that you'd most of the time pick me to be the one to do it with (it was probably me the one asking half of the time LMAOOO).
As I said, this would be the shortest of the three on this tab since I can't really remember a lot of it, but all I know is that I started the best friendship of my life.
November 2013 - November 2014
Again, I can't remember much of this year but I do believe this was the year that drove the biggest crack in our friendship which still, at times, effects us.
I wouldn't say the crack formed when we became friends with Sophie. No, at first she was amazing and we both would agree to that no problem. Let's face it, she never was antagonistic - not until she came back from her camp and even then I don't think she meant to be. No I'd like to think the crack began with the formation of The Fab 5. Why do I think that? Well to put it simply, during the formation of TF5 you and Sophie were closer, you and Hyu talked a lot more than I did with him and you and Kevin spoke a lot more, with my situation with him being similar to that with Hyu. The Fab 5 honestly felt like it was you with other people you were close to adding me in so I wouldn't feel left out. Of course I know that you added me in because a.) I'm fab af but b.) because you wanted me to be a part of it and you wanted to include me and not just for the reason of me not feeling left out. There would be times throughout the whole Fab 5 era that I'd see you with someone else on chat and when invited I'd always feel like I was intruding. I guess that feeling of intruding is what drove for me to involve myself more so slowly I began to talk to Hyu which resulted in the birth of Chinwald, I began to talk to Kevin more which resulted in cute nicknames and I began to put more of an effort into speaking to Sophie. Before, I just let you two do whatever and I guess being the odd one out in terms of timezones really had an effect on me so whenever she was on chat I made the conscious decision to at least speak to her once. This is what led to me and her speaking a lot more when she returned.
That was the biggest crack creator. That and the fact me and her began to partake in projects more that were just us two. I don't think I ever told you my motive. When I made contests with her or event ideas with her it was never to become better friends with her or, admittedly, to benefit the wiki as a priority. No, it was to impress you. The whole of 2014 I wanted to impress you and I still do. I ask you a lot of the time for your opinion just like I did back then because I want your approval, even if you're not included in it. In my trance of wanting you to approve of everything I did I lost sight of the main thing that's kept me on this wiki for so long - our friendship. I neglected it, not fully, but I neglected it. That's the bottom line. While it was still a big priority in my life it became drowned out with other things such as year 11 starting, wanting to impress you and my depression. In the back of my head I always thought you'd be okay with it and ever since our arguments in early 2015 till now when you've told me how you've felt I realised it wasn't okay. I made you feel unwanted, replaced and everything I always was scared of and still am afraid of feeling.
When I left CHB briefly (partly because of internet issues, partly depression and partly because I wanted to) I promised you I'd never stop speaking to you and I managed to, I honestly did. Now I just thank anything and everything (not literally, I'm not insane) for the fact that I didn't pick Sophie over for you because I don't doubt for a second that that decision would've been among the worst I've made.
November 2014 - November 2015
If any year put us to the test, it was this year. I remember at the end of 2014 our friendship was probably at it's most ruined state; I was serious about leaving for DARP, Sophie had contributed towards a division between us, I had a lot of internet issues in general so we didn't see each other that much and then two of the biggest things of this year - my relapse and the model issue. I want to address both of them.
This thing. Jesus fucking Christ this thing. If I could hate something so much it would be this. It made me act like a complete asshole to you - the only person who'd consistently been there for me. Looking back now, I can't believe what I said to you or how I acted towards you - it just seems as if you were a stranger to me that I was trying to make leave me alone. I realised it back then too because I made a promise to myself and to you that I would get better for our friendship as well as for myself. I retain to this day you were a driving force for me to get better. SO much happened because of this that probably could've broken our friendship and I'm so so so so so so glad that it never happened because we're too goals af for it too c:
The Model Issue
I'll be really brief with this since I mostly addressed it in previous presents and we've discussed it somewhat but basically, even after all this time I still feel really guilty despite the fact that the actual relationship between Eli and Luka will be cute af and then whoever is unlucky lucky enough to get Ethan will be cute af too. Although it shouldn't, it's really made me apprehensive about asking to share models with you and more often than not I always feel like you'll say no (hence why I got v excited when I could use Junho) which, more often than not, leads me to think you hate me (idk why sh).
Beyond these Issues
Beyond this year I definitely felt our friendship becoming a lot closer, a lot stronger. I'd probably say we've been the closest since June than we have ever been before. To that I say thank you so much. You know that my previous best friends have abandoned me, replaced me or played and manipulated me. Never once have you done any of those things. You've stuck by me through everything, you've always kept an interest in me and my life and you've always let me, essentially, be me. I'd be lying if I said you'd been anything but my bestest friend I've ever had. Yeah there are times I get annoyed or frustrated by you but that's life, not everyone is aiming to please everyone and I know I've frustrated and annoyed you myself. But even with all these frustrations, annoyances and being offended at times, I couldn't - nor wouldn't - ask for anyone else to be my best friend. People can come hella close, but they will never ever replace you. If I was forced to make you one promise it would be that I'd never abandon you. There are times where I believe I'm not a good enough person to be your best friend, or that I'm not a good enough best friend and you deserve someone way better and despite all that you still tell me time and time again that I am good enough or I am deserving and as soppy as it sounds (as if this whole thing wasn't soppy enough) I couldn't thank you enough. Ily <3
I hope you know how happy you make me. I wouldn't be lying if I said speaking to you is among the main sources of happiness that I have. It makes me really happy when I see '♚ F i n n y ♚ is online' pop up on my computer screen because then I'm able to talk to the main.
Whenever we begin to talk I notice that I become happier in what I say and do, online and irl. I could be having the worst day imaginable but within ten minutes of talking to you the whole day changes and I'm loving it again. On a bit more of a wikia oriented happiness scale, it makes me happy whenever you say you like my ideas, or dibs on a model I want to use since it shows you're taking an interest. Bit of a stupid reason to find happiness, since I know that you're mostly always interested, but still, it doesn't fail to make me smile whenever you say "dibs oops" to a model I linked with the possibility of me using them.
I think it's because you're so much of a source of happiness for me that I get overly sad whenever you say you're useless or something you do isn't good enough. Because, trust me, everything you do is good enough and I swear to god you're the opposite of useless and I refuse to hear otherwise. Your happiness greatly influences my happiness and I hope you know that I'd sacrifice my happiness in order to make you feel happier.
Just like being happiness, I wouldn't be lying if I said there are times where you contribute greatly to the emotion of sadness for me - as I'm sure I do to you. Truthfully, you don't make me sad often and its usually other factors that make me sad but there is the odd time where you say something or do something and I get upset.
The thing you do regularly that makes me upset (its not even regular) is whenever I make you something. More often than not you'll point out the flaws in it before saying thank you or saying how much you love it. The biggest time I felt the most sadness from this was on your 16th birthday - I very much wanted to make sure it happened on midnight for you but my computer was lagging and as a result I didn't upload a few images to save time. When going over the gift I asked for your thoughts and you said "some of the images aren't uploaded" (obvi you didn't say that exactly but I'm not gonna go through our skype convo to find it xD) which honestly, for the brief like ten minutes of you not saying else afterwards, made me feel like all my hard work and emotions I poured into that gift were discounted just for the fact I didn't upload some models. As I said, this only happens when I make gifts and stuff that you seem to point out the flaws (I can get over you doing it when I link a char page coding) and I know I've told you about this before but just know it does hurt my feelings at times c:
The second time you've only made me really really really upset was during the time where you told me not to search for Mingyu gifs which, in my defence, I did stop but one gif came up on my dash and I had to use it bc bae af and I showed you and I can't remember the exact details but all I remember was that you essentially placed a gif above my feelings which made me both so upset and mad (but then in like 20 minutes it was all good bc ily and I can't stay mad at you for long cx).
A pseudo-third time was on NYE when I thanked you for being my best friend and stuff and I sorta hoped you'd do the same but you said you were in a bad mood so we'll forget about that cx (Though it did make me feel somewhat sad that the possibility that you don't feel the same is there but w/e)
I know you've told me multiple times that expressing your feelings isn't your strong point and sometimes you say things without thinking of the consequences and stuff and that's why, at the end of the day, I rarely take what you say to heart because I know there's a high chance you don't mean it. I don't remember where, but I once saw a thing that said that your best friend that gives you the most happiness will also cause you the most sadness and neither can happen without the other.
I guess I should have combined this with Sadness but I didn't sucks get over it. Admittedly a lot of what comes under this tab is written above but I'd like to say that you don't make me feel anger a lot of the time, but rather frustration. Which I know for a fact I make you feel so I can't say anything without evaluating how frustrating I can be and am.
The main source of my frustration towards you is when I'm asking you for an opinion on two gifs and you always say you're too busy when it literally takes less than a minute to do but you expect me to do it when you ask. While this isn't a big deal it just annoys me a little bit and I've told you countless times on how it annoys me so there's not a lot I can really say tbh.
This is one of emotions you're probably more acquainted with when it comes to me. I fear so much about our friendship and it comes from the whole prospect of you dropping me for someone better - someone who could be a better best friend to you because I'm not, I can't be; there's so many flaws with me that there has to be someone out there that you'd rather call your best friend than me. That's the honest reason why I say to stop in main, not because I have an issue with you talking in main, but because I'm completely terrified that talking to a user like Riri, Blue or whoever will result in you dropping me because they're all better.
That same fear is probably the reason why I don't say no often to you, or when I do I never go through with it and chicken out in the end, or why I do a lot to please you in some cases. It's all out of fear that any wrong move I make and then I lose the best person I've ever met. I guess that makes me a pushover but as clingy as it sounds (as well as creepy oops) I really don't want to, nor can't, lose you as a best friend. You've done so much for me and I'd honestly feel, whatever the circumstances, that if we were ever to stop talking I'd have not only lost the best friend ever, but also wasted our time as best friends because I do take it for granted whilst fearing it.
I know this emotion of fear makes me seem really unfair with some things (chat) but a pushover with others (models probably lmao) but I just value you as a friend so much that, in a selfish way, I don't want anyone else to have you. Of course we both know I'd never go to the extreme of not letting you communicate with someone without giving up the same privilege (Brocoli days woop woop) nor would I permanently prevent you from talking in chat but idk, I just value you and our friendship so much.
Pride & Thankfulness
I don't know if I've ever said this explicitly, but I'm really proud to call you my best friend and on the flipside I'm quite proud to say I'm your best friend. But the main focal is I do take a lot of pride in saying you're mine because you are, in my eyes and a lot of people, the perfect best friend. Even with anything that someone else could cite as a fault or a downside, you're the best best friend ever. If my parents had made the move to Ontario (we both know where I'd be moving to) I could see us being near enough inseparable seeing as we are on the wiki practically.
Seeing as I had two emotions I could put down that neither were big enough to make into separate headers, I'll be including thankfulness within this header also. You have no idea how thankful I am to be able to call you my best friend. You have no idea how thankful I am for everything you've done for me, good and bad. You've helped make me into the person that I am today and without you I don't think I could have half the confidence that I do, both on the wiki and in real life. I'm thankful that at the end of the day I have someone to go to that won't ever judge me and would always provide help no matter what the situation and that person is you. I know you don't like getting soppy that much but I really am incredibly lucky to have met you, it just sucks there's an ocean separating us. I could say so many more things about what you've done for me but you've helped me grow into a better person who doesn't doubt themselves continuously and who isn't always wondering if they're a good enough person (ik I doubt this for being a good best friend in my own right but everyone's a little harder on themselves). In short, I guess, thank you for being you and allowing me to be your best friend and for allowing yourself to be mine.
Six Little Messages...
Don't you ever give up, never - you can do it and you've proven to me on multiple occasions you can do anything you set your mind to.
Never, ever tell me you're useless, an inconvenience or anything of the sort. You're not - nobody is. (Tho js to me you're v useful and v much the opposite of an inconvenience.)
One day I will be close to your height and we can take v cute goals selfies together with our pale grey and blonde hair.
Without you I'm know I wouldn't smile as much or laugh as much as I do.
I would never, ever trade our friendship for anything in the world.
Finally, I'm so glad that out of all the people I could be a best friend with overseas, it was you.
HAPPY NEW YEAR BROCKASAURUS! I know this is a bit late, but whatever. XD
Anyway, I just want to thank you for everything. Everything as in literally everything. For being friends with me back in 2012, for welcoming me back during all the times I left and came back, for supporting me, for helping me out with anything, for being awesome, for being my hubby, for being cute and for being an overall great friend. I know that we aren't really that close on a personal level but I want you to know that I consider you one of my closest friends here because you are always so nice and kind and funny to me. Hope we become closer and that we have a great 2016 together. Happy new year! Love ya! <3
Thought I'd message you personally about this as you know more than me on this subject, but you weren't on. Merlin has had his helper rights revoked because of a lack of edits. I'm not really informed on the edits a helper needs to make so I'm not arguing, but Kevin said that the helper test needs to be taken before he can get it again. I thought that we agreed that wasn't the case (as we all abstained from the vote, and just had it as an optional test.)
I don't want to cause any trouble. But isn't it just a case of signing up again? Apparently admins with the test won't give him access to it. I'm asking as a favour to him, as he does want to be more active and I'm sure policy says that people should have easy access to that role. Just checking. I'd give rights but I don't want to overstep my limits.
Please let me or him (probably better tbh) what's going on :)
I'm just wondering if there is any chance I've me becoming a helper. I've tooled the test twice and only been giving the results back the first time I tried. Do you mind giving it to me the next time you can because I've tried asking to do it again but haven't been allowed. I asked fate about this and he told me to go to you
So I'm not sure if Oli was able to pass on the message some weeks ago, but I'll be stepping down from my position as bureaucrat. I'll take down the rights tonight. There were quite a lot of factors in this but the biggest one has to be theatre. You see, I became part of a theatre production (as in like staff and all), and the production(s) really take up a huge chunk of my time. It got to the point where I wake up at 6 in the morning, but arrive at home at 2am and go to sleep at 3am. Because of the productions, I have to sacrifice a lot of things, and unfortunately, that includes the wiki.
I'm not leaving. I'm hoping it doesn't come to that. But I can't afford to remain as bcrat when I'm not even editing, let alone fulfilling my duties. I'm sorry if this was like a huge ass atomic bomb dropping out of nowhere. I'm hoping there will be people to help out, even without me. I WILL do my best to be as active as possible, but I can definitely say that it's not possible in the near future. If ever I do become so inactive that I actually reach the 6-month inactivity limit, rest assured that I'll come back and work my ass off, if it'll help the wiki grow.
It was an honor working for the wiki, and it's definitely something I'll miss. I'm still just an iris message away, if you ever need me! :)
I know that you're busy, and can't always get on chat. That's fine, but have you heard from/ check your messages from Mel? I really don't want this to pass. She edited two days before it was put up. Doesn't that count for something? I feel (and if I'm wrong, fine) that the vote should go up BEFORE they have made an edit for the month+
Hey brocky. so you probably already guessed from my title....i unfortunately have to step down from my position as admin. since school ended, i lost my laptop and i graduated so i wont be gettingthe laptop back. So yea now i have no latop to use and probably wonteven have much time to get on since im gonna start work soon and college. yea so, even though i really really dont want to, i have to step down and just be a regular user. i am planningto stay around as a regular user though. i just dont wanna be one of those admins that does no work but keep the admin status for whatever reason they keep it for. Well thats all i have to say. Hopefully i can get a laptop soon and then be more active and maybe gofor admin once again but untill then, please take this as my offical stepping down from my postion
Hi Brockasaurus!!! How've you been? I haven't seen you around much. I really really miss you! :((
Anyway, I was just wondering if I could be transferred to the Human Resources Department? This past month all I've been doing are HR work and I think that's were I really belong. I mean I like being in Aid & Support but if I just keep doing HR work then it kinda defeats the purpose of me being in AS in the first place, don't you think?
Okay man I just talked to my Aunt about the computer incident,and she will be giving me her old desktop. In other words,im pretty sure I will be able to stay,im suppose to go over today to get it so my edits should be back up by at least tomorrow assuming it runs as well as she claims. Thanks man,sorry for the scare Yikes o.o
Hey Brocky,so this is the final update about my computer issues. This desktop works and gets the job done but its really slow. I can still stay on the wiki and maintain proper editing but I feel as if it would be good for me to switch to Aid and Support. Most of my edits have become pretty light weight,and frankly with the Admin positions in HR filling up,I do not want to be the reason that a future HR rollback could not be promoted to Admin (when in all honesty ,said rollback could produce more work than I) . Thanks,please get in touch with me if changing departments is a viable option. Yikes o.o
I'm new to wikia and was hoping to join in on the roleplay! I've been trying to figure out how to send in my character claim, but somehow I must have missed a step or lost my way (or I may just be very tired and not seeing it even if it's right in front of me), but nonetheless, I was hoping you could help me find my way!
If not, it's not a big deal whatsoever! I'll figure it out eventually!
Thanks for taking time to read this! I really appreciate it!