So....hey guys :)
I know it's been a while since I've had, well...any contact with you guys- and I apologize, because this will also be my last blog for a while. However, I have - and I know it makes little to no difference, nor is it any excuse- been on the wiki a lot, just not editing nor going on chat. I'm not sure why. I like to see that everyone's still here and the wiki is still doing absolutely amazing, as always.
So, I know where I'm going with this, and I'm sure most of you will be guessing (possibly correctly) what the point of this blog is, given the title and what you've read (and are reading) now. But before you jump to conclusions, I just wanna tell a little story.
I joined this wiki during the first few weeks of May 2011. Damn, that was over two years ago. I loved (and still do) this wiki, it was my escape from real life and it wasn't long before the wiki became my real life- I cared more about whether Bach was going to be promoted to b-crat (yes it was that long ago) more than the hot mess that was my chemistry grade. But I didn't care, the wiki became more of a family than my real family. Things moved on, spotlights, user influxes, and all that good stuff- it was great. I progressed from regular user to rollback to admin, and made some great friends (you know who you are, and if you aren't sure, you probabbly are). Needless to say, there were some bumps along the way, and it wasn't always rainbows and unicorns - but we got through it. However many times I tried to leave for whatever reasons, including grades, personal ones that those of you still here will remember (apologies for that again), random spans of inactivity sans notice, etc. etc., I still lingered and came back. I was a regular user again, but climbed back to rb and then back to inactivity and then back to regular user. Along the way, I lost many friends who were very close to me on the wiki (namely Kari, Gel, Starz, Arte, Rawr) - you guys will have your own opinions regarding them, and I respect that and you're completely entitled to them. Thankfully, I've kept in touch with most of them, which is lovely, because they've all got special places in my heart (along with many of you, who are reading the blog).
Flash forward to the present, and here I am, after a rather large bout of inactivity, I post this long-ass blog with my wiki life story? Bear with me, my lovelies, it'll all be clear soon.
I'm gonna try and explain what's going on in my (very strange, unorganized and technicolourfull) mind using an analogy. This wiki is like my hometown- I was born here and cultivated my first ever RP experience here. If someone was to ask me where I was from (in a RP sense) I would, without a doubt say that I was from CHBRPW. But, like with most kids, we grow up and we move out for a while. I will not beat around the fact that I am more active on another wiki, which you'll either know of or won't, I shan't name them, for their own privacy. So back to the analogy. I moved to this strange new place and lived there for a while. Without telling any of my family (you guys) back home, I stayed there- I'm renting a cute shoebox studio apartment in this new place. And finally, I've plucked up the courage to come back home, and look my family in the eye and tell them I'm staying somewhere else. This is the part where you either chase me with broomsticks, yelling how mad you are that I didn't tell you before, or you're happy that I've found a new place.
If you're still reading (haven't become too angry with me and clicked away), I can not even begin to thank you for making my time here so amazing. I mean, I'd name you all but there are so many of you and it pains me to even think about apologizing. But I'll try anyway.
Bach, I came to this wiki a young, childish boy, and I'm leaving an aesthetically older, childish boy. You've been the biggest mentor, friend, *and I know you hate being insinuated as old* but mother. Looking back, it seems like everytime I cocked up you'd be there to clean up the mess or to sort stuff out for me. And despite the times we've not seen eye to eye, I, without a doubt, am sure that you have (and still do) genuinley cared for me, and the countless times I've flopped at coding, and my PR problems and allsorts of random shit that I've put you through. I'm sorry and I've always looked at you with the utmost respect and revere. Please, never change.
Brocky- I don't think I've ever outwardly told you how much of a great person you are, so here it is. I don't know if our relationship has ever struck you as close, or existent, but I'd like you to know that from my end of the stick, I've always harboured a deep affection to you as a guy- you're so nice and I genuinely wish you nothing less than the best. You do so much work and you've got great work ethic (for those of you who'd contest this, see the Survival competition, it was bloody brilliant) and I think you ought to continue as you are. You're awesome bro, and never forget that.
Minx. When I first properly met you, my initial attitude to you was negative *you challenged me for Demeter counsellor, remember?* But my, was I the WORST judge of character or what? You've been so kind, helpful, considerate, genuine, caring and I just can't get over the fact that people like you can actually be found in the world, and it boosts my faith in humanity to know that you're out there somewhere. I have and will always consider you my sister who's waaay cooler than me; and I'd just like you to know that you're absolutely fab and genuine and I just want to hug you right now :3
Bloomy/Lispector: My little fairy sister <3 I don't even know where to start, and when I do, it'll be hard for me to finish. I'm glad that I was at times the shoulder you could cry on, and vice versa. Your kindness and love and thoughts will always be remembered and I just want to thank you in particularly for being there for me, when no one else was, even if I hadn't outwardly told you that. You were a solace, a healer and you (alone) got me through some horrific times, and I'll always love you and your spirit. I love how I always called you fairy because despite your punky/badass exterior there's a whole new dimension to your personality. I love the fact that that your avatar is of Natalie Dormer, and I just love you in general.
I can't list you all down, but shout outs to Nar, Flame, Wonder, Jas, Zero, Unu, Trav/Sage, Haribo, Gypgyp, Lott, Broken, Ruby and all the rest of you! You have all been great friends and I would proudly call you all my friends.
To everyone I've rp'ed with- be it once or regularly, thank you. I can't even begin to state how much it means to me. Two years on, RP is still my get-away from RL. It may be more stressful, and on a much bigger scale, but I still love it, because I live a thousand lives via all my characters. You're all wonderful and I appreciate you more than I say.
To all the new users who don't know me but have still reached to here; hi. You all probabbly know more about me now, but don't think I don't know you. As I stated above, I have been stalking the wiki a lot, and I've seen many new names and avatars, and I'd like to personally say Welcome to the wiki! You've chosen probabbly the biggest rp wiki, with the most multicultural, diverse, interesting userbase, belonging to a great fandom. I hope you all flourish and find yourself as attached to this wiki as I am.
To conclude, I'd like to apologize. I've been an ass at best by coming on the wiki, but not editing nor chatting. I'm sorry, even though it's not really an excuse. I'd like to thank you again, for the wonderful time I've had here and the relationships I've made here, they're truly phenomenal, and I only have you guys to thank for that. I also want to thank you for introducing me to the world of RP and it's ups and downs. I thank God constantly for somehow taking fifteen year old me to this wiki, on the very early morning of 13th May, two years ago.
What happens next? I don't know. I do know I'm crying right now. I guess it's because I've got to the end of my blog and I'm still stalling to say 'goodbye', even though it's unavoidable now. I also would like to clarify that this is not the end. I don't know what my future holds for me. I may come back, sometime- if you're all still here (which I'm sure you will be). I'd also like to clarify that I'm not going to just disappear after this. I'm going to try and come on chat for a bit during holidays or when I'm free. But I won't be editing or roleplaying. I guess you could call this a hiatus? Or you could call it me leaving, with this sappy blog? Call it what you will, I just ask one request- that your last thoughts of me aren't negative. I just want to leave with your last memories of me being positive and celebrating when I was here, because I really do love you all.
This is SoA signing off. Bye guys, I'll miss you.